I'm only 28 but I look in the mirror and I hate what I see. I;m always tired battling with work, kids, and chores. I waste my days working in an office wearing a business suit and acting proffesional. I wish I was 19 again. I use to be carefree with my bright fire engine red hair, piercings, and tattoos, wearing my baggy pants, baby tee, and riding a skateboard. I dreamt of being an actress or in a rock band. The other day I cranked up my car stereo and drove to work playing some All American Rejects and people look at me strange because I look like a business lady. I've gained over 40 pounds since then (yes, I know with 3 kids it can happen) but some of my other friends that have kids dont look as bad as I do. I seem to have forgotten about fashion and never wear makeup (except for black eyeliner) and Im tired of my long hair. I want to feel young and alive again. Does anyone else feel this way?
You know you are facing the most challenging times of your life with respect to the balancing act. No time for you but making time for your work and tons of time for your family. Youth represents freedom and a time where we had little to no responsibilities except for ourselves.
Good times.
Good memories.
I'm 61...and somewhere between where you are at and 61 you will grow to appreciate yourself and your accomplishments (raising your children and balancing your life) and no you will not want to go back and be young again.....61 is not bad.
You just hang in there kiddo....life gets a lot sweeter and things just seem to balance out. Do try to fit in some ME time...where it is just you and yourself. Take in a movie...by yourself....take in a walk.....take a bath......just take yourself and no one else along. And take a deep breath and keep moving.
Good luck to you.
I'm 37. I married at 23, had my 1st dd at 24 and thought I'd have a total of 4--two boys two girls by age 30. I love children and thought I'll be a sahm and then head back to college when the youngest started school. I would have headed back 2 years ago! Having the 1st was easy, the second not easy and the 3rd and 4th will forever be illusions (but I'm okay with that!) I did go back to college when the 1st went to school--she was the only one I had. I was 30. At 32 I was pregnant (joyfully so) and figured, after a year I'll head back and just put her at the university daycare. Well, my baby became chronically ill and so now I'm 37 and still a sahm, who still dreams of going back to college. I spent the last 4 years taking care of her and she is now basically healthy with the exception that she is underweight due to the sideaffects of chemotherapy and her illness. I also spent those years chronically ill as well with arthritis in my wrists. It was hell. I gained 15 lbs--i'm small boned and I started having problems with my leg as well--not feeling it. Doctors were worthless--don't they read the paper where you list your allergies? I was depressed and felt like there was no one that could help me. I reached out, but had people slam the door in my face. So, I hit the internet and the library, researched all I could about arthritis, diet, depression, etc. I became my own doctor--kind of what you are trying to do by posting here. I dropped my meds, went vegetarian and whole foods, left vegetarianism and stuck with whole foods, and my arthritis got better. I still had problems here and there. I researched vitamins and started taking the ones I know I need. I went to the library and started reading psychology books. I even analyzed my handwriting. My breakthrough moment though--after all this work was, when I allowed myself to mourn: I mourned my past, I mourned the dreams that never came true and I mourned the future that would never be. My second breakthrough was when I waited for my husband one night and forced him to let me vent (he had buried his head in work for the last 4 years) and I cried and I talked and talked. When he tried to console me prematurely, I didn't let him I kept on and on talking. I went to bed more relaxed then I had in years. Since then my arthritis has acted up even less--I'm still mindful of my diet, vitamins, sleep, etc. and will always be that way. It is a way of life.
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I was a bit grumpy a few weeks ago, because I wasn't getting any me time and I told my husband that I was really trying to get through a lot of stuff and that it was a process. I've been reading these books by Julia Cameron about creative people and they have helped me quite a bit. A while back I read some Barbara Sher books and they were helpful as well--I don't feel fragmented as a person. Check your library. Both books basically are about a person allowing themselves the right to be themselves--to be okay with who they are. They are worth reading. We shouldn't box ourselves in. Why can't a business person wear baggy pants when not at work or get some temporary hair color and dye their hair for the day?
I don't know if there are many people out there living the life they dreamed as a child--frankly, children have a lot of unrealistic dreams that they just don't realize how unrealistic they are. Life has it dictates: shelter, food, clothing. We all don't have the luxury of painting all day, or taking reject after reject in our artistic endeavors. But we can find ways to channel our creativity. We can learn an instrument just for the heck of it in our spare time. We can allow ourselves to not feel guilty for needing spare time--me time. We can paint something over the course of months and years no matter how long it takes. We can list all those things we like and see if we can't incorporate them or something like them into our lives on a regular basis. We can reach out to help others when we are feeling down or overwhelmed--we will feel less isolated and we might learn something from them.
I was upset at my 13year old when I got on line since she is having a disrespectful teenager episode. It has been one of those days when I am left feeling that being a sahm is a thankless occupation. Of course, tomorrow I will be loving it as much as I did last night. Everyone has their ups and downs. No ones life is perfect. Allow your life to be unperfect. You may feel like you've done it all, kids, husband, career. Thing is you forgot one very important--VERY IMPORTANT thing that you haven't done: you haven't gotten to get YOU. Who are you? Who do you want to be? How can you make this happen while still keeping your current obligations? You sound like if you don't do something you will explode. Don't let it get to that point. You might try making a list of all the things you've accomplished, all you are grateful for, all the things you haven't accomplished, and what you intend to do to accomplish those things.
I don't reccommend a makeover--physical one. It won't have long term effects. If you feel you must have a makeover, do it with the intention of cleaning up what is on your outside so that you can focus on "cleaning up" the inside. You can lose weight--I lost 15lbs just walking in my house--not on a treadmill either--I went from kitchen to laundry room to living room etc to music for 30 minutes a day. I also ate right.
I was going to say good luck, but you don't need luck you need to just decide what you want to do and quite frankly JUST DO IT. Personally, I'll be in my mid 40s when I get done with law school--it used to bother me, especially since I have to finish up 30 hours on my bachelor's still, but I don't worry about it anymore. I'll be in my mid 40s if I do nothing.
My life hasn't lived up to my dreams of what it would be like, but I have my husband who hasn't been perfect, but has always been willing to try; my 13 year old, who is a really good kid; my 4 year old who is healthy and witty, and myself who isn't going to sit around feeling sorry for herself any more, because there are so many things left for me to do with my life. There are so many things left for you to do in your life too. All you have to do is remind yourself of them and to find the ones you just haven't thought of yet.
This is kind of ironic because I am 50 and I look back at being 28 as being some of my best times. I think we all get tired of the 9-5 from time to time. We all grow up and realize that the world really doesn't revolve around us. And many of us have jobs that are just that. Jobs. But they pay the bills and allow us to spend time with the ones we love the most. I never really wish I was young again though. I have been through a lot of pain in my life and would not want to have to go through it all over again. And as far as cranking up the radio, there is no age limit to that. Who cares what the stranger in the next car thinks? Maybe you need to get a sitter one night and go out and do some karaoke and just turn loose a little. It will help get it out of your system and make your appreciate your home life and kids more. You are still a young woman but you need a little break from time to time from the daily grind to keep you from feeling old and tired. Let some of those chores sit. (They'll wait for you) Take a mini vacation. Get a hair cut. Help someone else out with a problem. These are all things that can help rejuvenate you. Good luck and feel better about yourself! Remember beauty is from the inside.
I feel the same way sometimes when I get stressed out. I remember the days where there were no worries....ah yes.
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Sucks to be old...im in my 40's
COCOA! stop being so down on yourself - you are onloy a pup! youve got plenty of 'me time' to come dont worry just chill babe!
I do wish I was young again, it's much harder to get a wife when you are past a certain age.
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Turn to God for help first. I also suggest you read what Job, the man mentioned in the Bible who went through intense pain and suffered the loss of all of his family. Even his friends turned against him and made long speeches against him. Despite that, he was rescued by God and is now known all over the world for his victory over Satan's attempt to completely turn him against God.
Read what Job, the man mentioned in the Bible, went through. He suffered intense pain, lost his family and even his friends turned against him. Despite that, he was rescued by God and is now known all over the world for his victory over Satan's attempt to completely turn him against God.
Don't make anything in life a higher priority than pleasing God. Whatever you do, always do it in such a way so that you know he will be happy with you. It may be hard, but it's worth it, and if you love him, that is how you will live your life.
Without God's love, you will always crave more and more and never be content.
Without a friend that gives you an honest answer when you want one, who gives you one out of love, you will always feel some misery. And if you only have friends that flatter you, you may be depressed knowing that they are doing so because they want to take advantage of you in some way rather than truly loving you, or loving you with a pure love, love which isn't self-seeking.
Other things that can make you miserable till you are depressed are a poor diet, bland food, bad smells (like from a carpet or hidden mold), are encountering unpleasant smells often (like perhaps from a new rug which smells bad), have bland surroundings (you may want to decorate your walls with posters), past trauma that is still bothering you because you don't know how to deal with it or because it was very painful, a lack of true friends or ones who give you bad to no advice when you ask for or when they see you need it, or living a shallow life.
I had problems with depression and suicide due to my parents neglecting my education, including knowledge about right from wrong, and not having much interesting or helpful to do. I also got bullied at school for how I was dressed and appeared before I was 14 and of course, instead of the bullies being punished I was the one who got stuck in a miserable substitute for a "normal" public high school and had next to no friends while there (and still have about none). Soon after attending that school I was bullied by the police off an on a few times. Other miserable things happened including being repeatedly kicked out and being mistreated at nearly all the jobs I had by coworkers or bosses who harassed me out of them. But, God saved me and helped me beat my depression and allowed and helped me to accomplish some great things that I can take comfort in having accomplished no matter how miserable. I'm still depressed sometimes, but it's not as bad now since he's opened my eyes.
Check out the link in my profile if you are interested in spiritual help, which I found has been a lasting and permanent solution heading towards perfect peace. I hope you show the link to others. There is also nutritional and cosmetic advice in one my books.
That is the way life goes. You get responsibilities, I have three kids, a career, and a husband. When you feel that way sometimes it just helps to think of all the blessings you have. Sure life was fun before all the responsibility came along. But try to focus on why you made the choices you made. All of those things are things that add to your life. Take a day for yourself. Do some of the old fun things you miss. Forget your responsibilities for a day. Every one reminisces about the past. Its a normal part of life. But take a day too, to celebrate who you are today and all that you have accomplished. Would you give up every thing you are today to be19 again??? I know I wouldn't!!!
1. stop smoking
2. don't drink
3. sleep early wake early
4. start running to be strong in body and soul
5. if your soul is not strong you body can not be strong.
6. you lived things fast, you saw lots of things now you are bored . you are missing old days. you can have better now.
7. if u have suspision on something learn it. if ur uncertainty about that thing is correct or not.
8. stop living in the past look to the future.
9. your weight is not the real problem,
10. first change yourself before changing your body or appearance.
11. when your psychology change your appearance will be change.
12. you are not happy with your self now, you complain but you didn't do anything to change this you rake decisions for this but you didn't apply any of them. you know the solution. start to apply the solution to the problem.
Shoot, I'm 41 years old, feel like I'm 20, have 6 kids, own a business, and look like I'm 30, I'm full of life and vitality. I look forward to getting up everyday and I still where the same size I wore in high school, that is a size 6 I so proudly can say. I love my family and friends and I feel great!!! You are as old as you want to be, I don't believe in societies norm, I'm not old, but I am fine wine.
To answer your question: NO, I do not EVER want to repeat my childhood. However, even as a 40-ish guy, I am youthful to a point where some people around me get uncomfortable. (I guess you're SUPPOSED to act old when you reach a certain age). I don't want to be young again and it bothers me that our society exalts 'youngness' as the ideal. I learned too much the hard way. I like listening to wisdom, which is usually found in persons who lived Life.
You can still live your dreams, hon....
Change your profession to something that makes you feel youthful and appreciated.
Best Wishes.
i just turned 47, i wish i was 46 again.
i'm 24 i wish 16 again there is a lot things i would like to have changed back then Report Abuse
I am 28 too, and understand 100%.
I think you are having a premature midlife crisis. I guess you didn't have a chance to get it all out of your system before the "mainstream" life got it's hooks into you. Why don't you put some of that old self back into your life? You can have your hair styled so that it can be classic at work and "messy" at home, and what's wrong with red? Is there a hair dress code at your work? Lose the weight, it can be done- do it by dancing or some fun exercise. Put your makeup on and start living your life as if you were only 28 years old and not 58.
me, and im only 11
sorry, i am young and i'm trying to make something to live for especially when i turn 17 now i am only 14 so i have a long way there and find a good path to my future and not end up 28 yrs. old,depressed,battling work, kids,and chores wasting my days at the office (hahahahahahahahaha sorry)
Sounds like you have some stress, I think I know how you feel. Try walking about 2 to four miles a day, that should help.
Sounds like you need a make over.
You could go to a beauty parlor and get a new hair do..
It will make you feel good and you may be encouraged afterwards to lose weight.
You could join a gym to get out of the house, even if you just did water aerobics in the heated swimming pool.
You could go for long walks with or without the children.
Then look in the mirror and convince your self that you are beautiful..because if you're not there yet, you're on your way !
Thank God I really am old--in my 50's. I wouldn't go back to being young again for anything. Now is the best time of my life--kids out of the house, retired with no job worries and a husband who still loves me madly even after 33 years. Don't think about what's behind you, think about all the great things life has for you in the future! Old and vital beats beats young and alive any day.
I'm 18, but i often wish i could just be a little kid again. Soon i'm going to be moving out of home permanently for the first time with my boyfriend, and we're going to be living in another city. I'm terrified. I wanna go 'cause i like the idea, but there's still a part of me constantly nagging that i wanna be home as a little kid and just have my parents take care of me again. *sigh*
But dwelling on that sorta stuff isn't good for your health, and instead of wishing for things that can never happen (like being 19 again), you should try wishing for things that you can accomplish. Like going out, getting your hair done, creating a healthier lifestyle for yourself. Work on the things in your life that will make you happy, don't concentrate on the past if it affects your current life now.
hmm maybe to make yourself feel younger, you can treat yourself to some spa or facial treatment or something. Make yourself feel beautiful and young again ;)
It's funny you say this, my boss and I came up with a theory that 28 is the age of uncool. I was describing how I was beginning to feel old, I don't like new music, i don't care about fashion and at the time my back was hurting cause I slept weird. We kept talking and he realized that when he was 28 he started to feel the same way.
My idea is when you turn 28 you come to see that you aren't a kid anymore and it is the first time you really start to see the world differently. I guess it sucks but we just have to learn that things aren't bad just different.
Three kids will wear you down every day. Maybe the person who noticed you jamming in your car just thought they wish they could be that energetic. A second youth should be in store for you once your kids start to leave home, hopefully they leave and don't stick around with their own kids.
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I am sixty. My best advise to you was a song sung by George Burns when he was 85, he lived to be 99.
"I wish I was 18 again"
at a bar down in dallas an old man chimed in,
and i thought he was out of his his head.
just being a young man i just laughed it off
when i heard what that old man had said.
he said i'll never again turn the young ladies heads,
or go running off into the wind.
i'm three quarters home from the start to the end.
and i wish i was 18 again.
i wish i was 18 again.
and going where i've never been.
but old folks and old oaks
standing tall just pretend.
i wish i was 18 again.
now time turns the pages
and oh, life goes so fast.
the years turn the black hair all grey.
i talked to some young folks,
hey they don't understand
the words this old man's got to say.
i wish i was 18 again.
and going where i've never been.
but old folks and old oaks
standing tall just pretend.
i wish i was 18 again.
lord, i wish i was 18 again!
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I feel so old and depressed. Does anyone wish you were young again?